Update on exercise and work placement

Absolutely loving my new gym, it's amazing. It has really given me a reason to go exercise again. 

The only sucky thing is you can't rely on the scales as it is weights training, and while you are probably losing weight, you are also putting on muscle too, so I really need to take measurements to make sure that I am losing. 

My eating hasn't been that great, but I think it mostly because I have put M in charge of making dinner, while I have been doing work placement, and to be honest M isn't the best cook in the world. 

I am going to try and make some freezer meals this weekend so that we can eat a bit healthier this next week. 

Also speaking of work placement, it has been awesome. I have finally found my people, I haven't never fitted in so quickly with any work place before in my life. I am enjoying it so much that I have to keep reminding myself that I need to put some time into my assignments. Tomorrow will be the end of my second week, I really can't believe how quick has gone. 

New challenges

I know I haven't kept this blog updated, but I am coming up to some new challenges and I feel I need to document the journey as I go through it.

On Monday, not only do I start work placement for my diploma, but I start at a new gym as well. 

It is going to be pretty full on both accounts, but I am so looking forward. 

Watch this space! 

Failed!

So you know that big motivational post I did before Christmas, you know the one where I said I would exercise my heart out and drop below 80kg. 

Well I failed...big time. 

I managed to put on 500g, and now I'm back up to 83kg. Plus it does help that my period has arrived today, so I'm absolutely exhausted as my iron is already low (my haematologist stated I only had enough iron to last me to Easter). 

Motivation has completely left me, and I am struggling to get myself off the couch. I am trying to keep my diet healthy, which has also been hard. 

I always struggle to exercise on my period, because of lack of energy, cramps, and blood loss. I know that should be no excuse, but working 4 days a week, being a mum of two and studying, I don't think I would have the energy to do everything. 

I know I full of excuses. 

Time to get under 80

I know, i know, it's been a while. It seems like lately that life gets in the way a bit too much, and when i do look at my blog i think too myself what can i really write down.

Well i finally have something to write about.

Over the Christmas period i was really worried that i would over indulge and i would pile on the weight and undo all the hard work that i have already done. Thankfully, i only put on about 500g, which will be easier to lose then a few kilos. I have decided that before the end of the year i want to be under 80kg, which gives me 4 days to lose 1.5kg, which i think is totally doable, but with the way my has been slowly (more like snail pace) falling off, im a little worried that i might be really disappointed at myself if it doesnt happen.

I really feel if i lose this 1.5kg myself esteem will reach a high, and i will really start feeling great about myself. A friend of mine is taking duromine and going to the gym. She has asked me to join her at the gym, but the thing is she goes at 10.30 at night, i just cant do that. She doesnt work so she doesnt care about the time, but i just cant do thwt as i work and i get up at 5am to get ready for work and to be out the door by 7.30am. I will just have to figure out my own thing, wnd focus on my eating and make sure that i dont snack on the wrong thing.

The exercise i will be looking at doing to help my weightloss,  will be my usual 5-7km walks, which i will be doing in the morning while i am on annuwl leave, and i will also be doing Les Mils body combat, which i really love, i have also managed to get M involved, and he will be from the 1st January (he wouldnt start any earlier) we will be doing the 30 day squat challenge, and once that is finished we will be doing other challengers, even if i have to make them up.

I will also be getting myself some new joggers. The ones that i have are a little worn and look like they are on their last legs, so i will head to the local shoe shop and get them properly fitted. I really want to start doing some interval training so that i can start running. I am not rewlly a runner, and have never been a runner, but i want to take my walking obviously to the next level.

Long overdue up date

So it has been awhile once again, I think life just gets in the way and you can't make time f, or things that you once enjoyed. This blog used to be my life when I was trying for the kids, when I was pregnant (the good and the bad) and once I had Lachlan and Charlotte, but now I sometimes just can't find the time to fit it in with everything. 

Anyway....I have recently found out that my diploma finish date has been brought forward to July 2015, so this means that I need to start studying my but off and find a place for my work placement (which I will probably look for at the start of 2015) so that I can finish in time. I am pretty sure I will finish before the end date, but it seems like that it is creeping closer and closer as we are coming to the end of the year. 

Our Lachlan will be turning 4 this week...eek!!! I can't believe that 4 years has gone by so fast! The unfortunate thing is that on Tuesday (his birthday) we will be heading up to the Sydney Children's Hospital. At Lachlan's 4 year old needles, Lachlan had a check up. Our GP thought that Lachlan had an undecended testicle, so sent us off for an ultrasound to check if everything was ok. After we went for the ultrasound, we went back to the GP and we found out that Lachlan has bilateral hernias just about where you undies sit on the pubic bone, he also has what is called a hydrocel (spelling) which is large. We will find out on Tuesday if Lachlan will need surgery or not, if he does it will be at the children's hospital. I will keep you updated with what happens.

Also I have lost 4kg!! This is really big for me as I find it really hard to lose weight. I have been really strict with portion control and eating really healthy, I have been also trying to do 7km walk each day, if I can't fit in a walk I try to do some strength exercises. I have also got a body combat DVD which I will be adding into the mix this week. I am really excited about the future journey of weight loss. 

Also last night M and I had a oops, fertility friend puts me in the ovulation period, but who knows if my body is doing what its told. Every other time we have had a oops nothing has ever eventuated, so I won't be keeping my hopes up.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss, 1 in 4, that 1 is me.

I know it's been awhile, but I have had some family stuff to deal with. 

Anyway, yesterday was Pregnancy and Infant loss Remembrance Day (15th October), and throughout all of October we remember all our Angel Babies that we have lost and forever hold in our hearts. 

Last night as various social media was flooded with photos of lit candles for the ones we had lost and grown their wings, I notice a woman I went to high school with uploaded a photo which said, "for our little peanut."

I messaged her to let her know I was thinking of her, and that I was sorry for her loss. I also let her know that she is not alone, mentioning that I too have miscarried (multiple times) and I have had a stillborn. As I read her reply it was like I heard her sigh with relief. She told me how it felt like she was holding this miscarriage as a huge secret for 3.5 years and it was nice to have someone to talk to about it, especially someone who understands what she is going through. 

This got me thinking, do so many of us keep it to ourselves, because others just don't understand? Or do we keep it to ourselves because we think we are alone in this? 

I know Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day is about getting the message out and re-educating everyone. It is still hard to know that 1 in 4 go through this loss. And I am the 1, as well as a lot of women I know. This is so common now, I just wish others who haven't be through this would have a better understanding about this type of loss. 

Happy Birthday Charlie

Honestly, where has the time gone? I swear it was only just yesterday that I was writing a blog about Charlie being 1 year old. 

So Miss Charlotte is 2 today! She woke up to a happy birthday sung by her older brother, her Aunty, myself and her daddy who was on the phone as he was already at work. 

We the progressed down stairs where she was met by a pretty pink bike and a play kitchen (which M and I built late last night). I then made choc chip pancakes :) 

So that we weren't stuck inside we went to a shopping centre, had baby chinos and lunch at a Mexican restaurant. 

Her party is on Sunday so there is more fun to come!