Not pregnant and Charlotte's appointment

Well like I thought PCOS wins once again and the verdict came out with a not pregnant. To tell you the truth I am not terribly upset about it, I thought I would be, but after Charlotte's appointment we have a few other things to worry about.

So Chadlotte's appointment a couple of things came out of it. Here weight has come up again which is really great and her height hasn't changed. We're going to continue on her reflux medication, although I am going to have to ring up and check the dose, as it says twice daily, but we didn't discuss it. And the other bit if news is that we're going to ring up at get an appointment at the Sydney Children's hospital and see a specialist gastroinologist who will perform a procedure on her to check out stomach. 

I know her doctor wants to cover all basis and make sure nothing else is wrong and I get that. It's just my brain hasn't really caught up with everything yet. 

A bit of an update

Ok so i felt like blogging because I haven't done it in a little while. 

Charlotte is becoming such a little talker. At 19 months she is doing 2 word sentences and starting to say 3 and today she came up to M and said "sorry Daddy", because she had heard Lachlan say it only moments ago. It was so adorable to hear. 

Lachlan has been a little challenging as he has been talking back to both I and M. He is like 3 going on 13! Thankfully he isn't like this all the time, and his Childcare is reporting back that he is being really helpful with packing away equipment at the end of the day and he is doing really with role playing activities. It is kind of hard to believe that he will be 4 this yet, and in a little bit over a year and a half he will will be going to primary school. 

On the whole weight front I couldn't complete the 12 week body transformation due to my bronchitis. So I took down some pointers and will start my own 12 week challenge come Monday. Right now I'm 80kg and I have been like that for a few weeks now, which for me is great as this is the lowest I have been of a few years. I am really hoping that I can motivate myself to stick with this. 

Also today marks 2 weeks since our oops and day 28 in my cycle. My cervix is saying high, firm and closed, but my mind is really having doubts that I am pregnant. As much as I would love to have another baby and be pregnant again, I just think it isn't going to happen off a oops for us. I guess I just wait a few more days and see what happens. If it isn't here in another week I might test, I just don't really see the point if this is just my PCOS messing with me. 

New ink and a little oops

So I added another tattoo to my body on Saturday (12/4/14). I got this rose to symbolise the bubs I loss because of miscarriage. I am totally in love with it, and I know it might be wrong to say, but it was such a turn on to see my tattoo artist draw this rose on my ankle by hand (side note, he's pretty hot too ;) ). 

I guess another thing to add is that on Friday we had an oops, it was also on CD 15, that doesn't mean much though as I live in PCOS land. 

I am really not expecting anything to come of it, and if something does you can say I told you so lol. I guess I am marking it for future reference. 

Motivation paying off

Well motivation paid off this week, in the form of my studies. I handed in my last assignment for this particular unit on Sunday. I stayed up till 11.30pm putting the finishing touches to it, and still wasn't happy with it when I handed it in. 

All Monday I was checking the OTEN website to see if I had gotten a mark, but I think it was really wishful thinking, thinking that it would get marked that quick. 

So Tuesday when I got to work I had another look, and there it was, marked and waiting for me to read. 

92%!!! 

I was so excited and surprised. I felt I didn't put as nearly as much effort into it as I wanted to and was so not happy with it. 

I just hope I pull off the same results in for my weight loss

Hello motivation

So I still have a residual cough from my bronchitis, but starting 5.30am tomorrow that isn't going to stop me! That's right I am getting up at the crack of dawn tomorrow and exercising. 

Over the past 6 days I have been getting motivation for everything!

It first started last Tuesday (25/3). I came home from work and was really in the mood to study and I have been studying everyday since. 

I have also been cleaning up a storm around the house, wanting everything to have a place in house and also wanting to make our place more homely...which is very unlike me. 

Then come today. I want to exercise, really, really exercise. I have set my alarm for 5am for my work days and 6am for the days I don't work, and I am going to get out of bed and kill it in my little gym area. 

I am so hoping this motivation continues as it has come at a great time. I want to finish my diploma and I would love to look in the mirror and be happy at the person looking back at me. 

Always it seems like too long since I last blogged. Sometimes it is because I don't want to bore you with my day to day crap, and other times I am just not really sure what I should talk about. 

I can tell you one thing, the 12 week body transformation I was doing was a complete failure. I ended up getting a chest infection which turned into bronchitis! I was really into it as well, I was getting up each and every morning to exercise and I was so motivated, but then I started to get this cough and I just couldn't exercise with out getting into a coughing fit or getting really short of breath. 

I have already decided that I am going to take not of the exercise program and start again. I really need to do this. 

On other matters the kids are just perfect. Lachlan has really turned into a awesome little man, although his fussiness in terms of meal times is really starting to frustrate M and I. We have tried everything and it is now starting to come to, if Lachlan doesn't have his dinner, then he goes to be without. 

Charlotte on the other hand is happy to eat anything we put in front of her and will try anything, she even eats eel! She has also taking this whole walking thing in her stride (pardon the pun). She loves her new found freedom of being able to walk anywhere she wants, but she is a total rough nut lol. 

On the subject of another bub, it is up in the air at the moment. There is some health issues I need to sort out and it seems to be pushing it back further and further. Both M and I don't want to have a large gap, so what ever happens in the next few months might make the decision for us. 

Been awhile

Well its been a very long time since I last posted, well over a month. I still have a lot of friend drama going on, which I have tried to distance myself from, but for some reaso  I can get away fast enough, before being draggrd back in.  I am hoping when they get divorced I will be free!

In other news I got my first tattoo. I decided last week that I was going to bite the bullet and get it done, and I did. I am so love with it, and already thinking of the next one. My friend said it would be very addictive and I can totally see why!

Also Charlotte FINALLY started walking! We are so totally proud of her. It took her a bit longer then what it did for Lachlan, but that really didnt bother us as we knew that she would do when she was ready. We know that it wont take her long to run, with having her big brother around.

I have also started the Michelle Bridges 12 week body transformation,  but when I started this program I also go a chest infection (great way to start the program), so I havent got the start that I have hoped. I lost about 5kg, but I have put some of it back on. I am really hoping to restart this week and back to losing the weight that I so desperately need to lose.

I promise time I wont leave it too long between posts.