A bit of a downer post

I am starting to think that there must be something wrong with me, all my friends have started to drop off the side of the planet since i got pregnant. I only have a small group of friends so it is easy for all of us to keep in touch but for some reason they have stopped returning my calls, messages and have also stopped inviting me out for things...which i know they are doing as i can see them chatting on FB about it. It is not like pregnancy is a disability or anything like that, i can still go out with them shopping, movies, even if they want to go drinking i can be their driver. It is just really upsetting me at the moment, and i really want to share this with them as well.

I really want my friends back.

Friend 'A' is getting married in March and I was going to be the maid of honour but i got a message off her saying due to the wedding getting to expensive she was cutting back on bridesmaids and i must not have made the cut. I later find out that she still has the same amount of bridesmaids and she has asked one of our other friends to be her maid of honour. It broke my heart as 'A' is meant to be my best friend and that she didn't have the courage to come and talk to me about it i would have understood if there was a reason behind this. But instead she sent me a message and replaced me with someone else....i don't know if i even want to go to the wedding any more i don't know if i want to bring my child to a wedding of someone that would treat me like that.

My hormones are raging and i have been so up set to see that all my friends have turned away from me. I don't even know what to do anymore i don't even think the thought of a baby shower will come in their minds when the time comes (not that i am even thinking of that).

I just don't know what else i can do.