My Heart hurts

Today a friend of mine announced on FB that she is pregnant (I have known that she is pregnant since she took the test). But I must say that my heart hurts so much to hear this news.

Now don't get me wrong, I am thankful for everyday I carried Lachlan, and for every day that I get to hold him in my arms. But my heart hurts for the days that I don't get to hold my Jensen and my other two angle babies.

I long for the day that I get to hold Jensen once again in my arms, and to hold my two angle babies for the first time.

I look at the tickers that I have at the end of my blog and see all the time has passed since they were in my life. I love them so much and I will never get the chance to see the kind of people they will grow up to be.

The girls in the BH November group say they are always with me and I do believe that. I just wish they were here in flesh and blood.

I love and miss them.