Shrink session.

Who turns up 20 minutes for there psychologist appointment?...me that's who. I am sitting in the waiting room and again I am thinking about walking out the door.

Is this really for me? Is this really going to work?

These are the thoughts that are running through my head. I am trying to be positive about these appointments (ok I know I have only been to 1 appointment) but I keep thinking deep down I am waisting my time and J's.

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So I just had my appointment, in some ways I am glad I went to it but in other ways I'm not. We hit some hard areas and I got really anxious. J says that it would be good to let go and to talk about what happened to me, but my head is holding me back.

I haven't told anyone about what happened to me and only DH knows parts. This is going to really take a lot out of me to talk about it.

Anyway on another note my little Charlie Bear is now weighing 4.5kg