Thoughts on bub #3

I have been doing a lot of thinking about my future in terms of more babies. My parents have told me that I shouldn't have anymore due to the problems I had with my pregnancy with Charlotte and that 2 is enough, but to me 2 isn't enough, I don't feel finished.

I have always said that when in my heart I feel done, then I will be done. I don't want to have the what ifs in years to come about whether or not I should of had more children.

Then I thought about the problems in my last pregnancy and how much it took a toll on my body, but every pregnancy is different and I had a beautiful pregnancy with Lachlan and only had a problem with the delivery and we have sorted that now and I now know I need to have a c-section when having a bub.

DH is also worried about having more kids and some how thinks I won't be able to fall pregnant again or that I won't be able to carry the baby to term. I think the only person that isn't worried us myself.

Having another bub is not going to happen straight away, not even next year. I have to give my incision time to heal and I need to give my mind time to heal again. Next year is going to be about me. I am going to focus on losing weight which I have left over from having Lachlan as I only put on 3kg with her and I lost all that when I had her...as it helped that she is 2.7kg lol. I am also going to continue studying as well.

I have thought about trying when Charlotte is 2, Lachlan will also be close to being 4 which will make life a bit easier and which will hopefully mean when bub #3 is here it will be the only one in nappies, also when bub #3 is due it will mean that Lachlan will be close to or in kindergarten. I can't believe is said that kindergarten!

In other matters Charlotte is coming up to the end of her 4th week on Zantac. This is when we will stop it and see if it has any effect on her and if things have improved. If they haven't we will be upping her dose and continuing the Zantac and will need to see the paediatrician again.

Also we have hit the terrible twos in full force and Lachlan has upped the tantrums. Hopefully this is the worst of it...fingers crossed.