Last night I wrote this huge blog and was about to press post when I couldn't do it.

I have always seen myself as a very open person, but I guess when it comes to certain subjects about myself I can't bring myself to let the words out.

As you know I have been seeing a psychologist since November and amazingly I have been able to make a patient doctor connection that I have not been able to make with any other psychologist I have seen before. But when it came to my appointment 2 days ago she cracked my shell and said something that has left me feeling rather anxious and vulnerable.

Thankfully I have an amazing support system in Lachlan's November Aunties (my November due in group).

Last night I was feeling particularly vulnerable and really needed to talk to someone. Although they don't know the whole situation about me, it doesn't matter. They were happy to listen and help in anyway they can.

I am still not feeling myself and I feel like there is a huge wait sitting on my chest and I know that I will probably need to call J (my psychologist) to actually talk these feelings through. I just know there is a huge winding path in front of me and it it is going to be a huge journey to get me to the person that I should be.