Long overdue up date

So it has been awhile once again, I think life just gets in the way and you can't make time f, or things that you once enjoyed. This blog used to be my life when I was trying for the kids, when I was pregnant (the good and the bad) and once I had Lachlan and Charlotte, but now I sometimes just can't find the time to fit it in with everything. 

Anyway....I have recently found out that my diploma finish date has been brought forward to July 2015, so this means that I need to start studying my but off and find a place for my work placement (which I will probably look for at the start of 2015) so that I can finish in time. I am pretty sure I will finish before the end date, but it seems like that it is creeping closer and closer as we are coming to the end of the year. 

Our Lachlan will be turning 4 this week...eek!!! I can't believe that 4 years has gone by so fast! The unfortunate thing is that on Tuesday (his birthday) we will be heading up to the Sydney Children's Hospital. At Lachlan's 4 year old needles, Lachlan had a check up. Our GP thought that Lachlan had an undecended testicle, so sent us off for an ultrasound to check if everything was ok. After we went for the ultrasound, we went back to the GP and we found out that Lachlan has bilateral hernias just about where you undies sit on the pubic bone, he also has what is called a hydrocel (spelling) which is large. We will find out on Tuesday if Lachlan will need surgery or not, if he does it will be at the children's hospital. I will keep you updated with what happens.

Also I have lost 4kg!! This is really big for me as I find it really hard to lose weight. I have been really strict with portion control and eating really healthy, I have been also trying to do 7km walk each day, if I can't fit in a walk I try to do some strength exercises. I have also got a body combat DVD which I will be adding into the mix this week. I am really excited about the future journey of weight loss. 

Also last night M and I had a oops, fertility friend puts me in the ovulation period, but who knows if my body is doing what its told. Every other time we have had a oops nothing has ever eventuated, so I won't be keeping my hopes up.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss, 1 in 4, that 1 is me.

I know it's been awhile, but I have had some family stuff to deal with. 

Anyway, yesterday was Pregnancy and Infant loss Remembrance Day (15th October), and throughout all of October we remember all our Angel Babies that we have lost and forever hold in our hearts. 

Last night as various social media was flooded with photos of lit candles for the ones we had lost and grown their wings, I notice a woman I went to high school with uploaded a photo which said, "for our little peanut."

I messaged her to let her know I was thinking of her, and that I was sorry for her loss. I also let her know that she is not alone, mentioning that I too have miscarried (multiple times) and I have had a stillborn. As I read her reply it was like I heard her sigh with relief. She told me how it felt like she was holding this miscarriage as a huge secret for 3.5 years and it was nice to have someone to talk to about it, especially someone who understands what she is going through. 

This got me thinking, do so many of us keep it to ourselves, because others just don't understand? Or do we keep it to ourselves because we think we are alone in this? 

I know Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day is about getting the message out and re-educating everyone. It is still hard to know that 1 in 4 go through this loss. And I am the 1, as well as a lot of women I know. This is so common now, I just wish others who haven't be through this would have a better understanding about this type of loss. 

Happy Birthday Charlie

Honestly, where has the time gone? I swear it was only just yesterday that I was writing a blog about Charlie being 1 year old. 

So Miss Charlotte is 2 today! She woke up to a happy birthday sung by her older brother, her Aunty, myself and her daddy who was on the phone as he was already at work. 

We the progressed down stairs where she was met by a pretty pink bike and a play kitchen (which M and I built late last night). I then made choc chip pancakes :) 

So that we weren't stuck inside we went to a shopping centre, had baby chinos and lunch at a Mexican restaurant. 

Her party is on Sunday so there is more fun to come! 

Where do I schedule room to breath?

So what do you really class as lazy? 

I have been working 3 days a week, with me getting up at 5am to get myself ready then the kids, to make sure that we are out of the house at 7.30am. 

When I come home I see my husband and kids, make dinner, which we eat when ready. Help with baths and bed with the kids. Then start studying. 

On the days I don't work I look after my kids, do the grocery shopping, clean, study and help my ill mother. 

But some how I can't work out where to fit in exercise. I really don't want to get up any earlier then 5am as I study until late. 

I feel like I need someone to come in and organise my life for me, so that I can fit in time to a relax period. 

I really do envy stay at home mums, I could have those 3 days without work, then I could spread the things I do on my days off over those days, so that I would have time to exercise.  

I have recently had a friend/fellow blogger (can't attach link as I am on my phone) who has lost a bit over 11kg in 12 weeks.  She is a stay at home mum of 3 boys under 3, and I just wish I could lose that kind of weight. 

1 step forward, 2 steps back

So even though it's been slow in the exercise department, but any progress is progress, which is good. The only probably is that yesterday I go a concussion, so I am out of action for a few days. 

It was really stupid. Yesterday I was looking in a cupbaord that was about nose height, and someone slammed it on my head. But because I have a blood condition I needed to have bloods and a ct scan done, plus neurological observations done. 

All in all I spent about 6 hours in emergency being fussed over, and ended up just having a concussion. The doctor told me to go home and rest, easier said and done when you have a 1 and 3 year year old. 

At the moment I still feel really groggy, have so swelling on the side of my head which should come down in the next few days and have a killer headache. I have been told the sings to watch for, just in case I have a stroke, but all in all I will be fine. 

It just puts things on the back burner in terms of my exercise. 

That crazy thing called exercise

So I tried this thing called exercising on Monday and wow, if you haven't done it in a while it's hard. 

So I decided I would try this 

Thinking that it would be a good workout and it would be relatively easy...but boy was I wrong. 

After one set I was huffing and puffy Amy shins killed, it felt like when I had shin splits.  

Anyway, I solidered on an and got through the two sets, feeling like I was dying. I laid on the floor not wanting to move, but I eventually sat up and did some stretching and then did some floor exercises so that I didn't feel like I did nothing. 

So today I am feeling incredibly sore and decided that I would take a day to rest and jump back on the horse tomorrow. 

Going in with a plan

So Aunt flow hung around a bit with constant spotting, but thankfully gone. So now I am thinking of exercises I can do. 

Every time I have gone into losing weight I have never gone in with a plan, well this time I am planning. 

As I haven't really done some real exercise for a while , other then walking to work, I really want to ease myself into it so I don't do an injury and then I am out for days or weeks. So I thought I will start on the treadmill, as some ab exercises and Yoga. 

I don't want to waste money on a gym if I can never get to one, due to looking after the kids, studying or working. So I guess that is another thing my schedule :-/

I want to be motivated. I want to do this for me. I want to lose weight.