Ahhh why won't this get out of my head

Ok I am mostly doing this in hope that this will get out of my head.

I want another baby.

Deep down I know that this is the worst thing right now for DH and I (or it might not be). With everything that has been happening in terms of him having the affair, but in the back of my mind I am thinking that it could be a good, it could go with the new start that we are going to have when we move.

He has asked if we would still like to try for our second in November and when he asked this I told him that I didn't think it would be a good idea, but now I am having second thoughts about it.

DH and I always thought that we would have our kids only a couple of years apart as we didn't want a big gap. But the thought of not having that, and the thought of wanting to have another baby is taking over and I am reconsidering trying for another one in November.

Lachlan has been such a dream baby. A good sleeper, a good eater, and is doing so well in his development that it is an easy decision to want to have another one.

Like I said I am writing all this down in hope that it will get out of my head.