My Mother

My mother is a beautiful woman who I look up to and turn to when I am in need.

Something that most people don't know about is when she was a little girl growing up in Yorkshire England she got really sick. She had phenomena several times and also had scarlet fever, there was also a time when she needed to be rushed to hospital by ambulance in the icy cold weather because she couldn't breathe and the ambulance crashed going to the hospital due to the roads being to icy to travel. Due to being so sick most of the time, it put a strain on the body and the affects started to take hold and my mum ended up only having 1/2 lung capacity, in turn leaving her with basically only one functioning lung. The Doctors told my grandmother that she wouldn't live past her 21st birthday and would never be able to have children.

When she went to school, which was not a lot as she was mostly in hospital, she couldn't play outside with her friends just in case she got sick. And due to her being sick most of the time she never got to finish high school.

Due to my mum getting to sick in England, her parents decided to move to Australia when she was a teenager. So my grandparents, 3 uncles and my mother moved to NSW Australia.

My mum ended up living past her 21st and ended up having 4 beautiful babies.



When i was in primary school my mum decided to go to uni. She always wanted to go to school as she never got the chance. And when i was in high school she was studying Naval History, which she is still doing till this day, as she is now doing her Doctorate in Naval History.

While i was in high school i remember my mum getting really sick and i remember her being in bed for months, and she lost a lot of weight. From this memory i remember my dad taking me to my squad training, doing the shopping (badly as he never did it), taking my younger sister and i to school and also doing the cooking. One memory that really stands out is my dad and i being at my older sisters house and him crying and hugging my younger sister. I have never seen my dad so upset, and right there and then i knew that my mum was really sick.

As time went on my mum got better and once again started doing everything that she would normally do.

In the first couple of months of dating my husband my mum got sick again, but not as bad as she did while i was in high school. Now being older i understood a lot more about what was going on and broke down in front of him. I really wanted my mum to see me get married, to see me have children. At that time it might have been a bit of an over reaction as she recovered a lot quicker this time around.

As the years have gone on she has seen me get married and have my first child, but now once again she is sick. My dad rang me this morning to tell me that she isn't doing so well, and i felt like i knew already. For the couple of weeks she hasn't been herself and hasn't been eating. And when my dad called me this morning he told me that she was having trouble breathing.

Now my mother is stubborn (and if you ask my husband he would tell you that all us Dwyer women are) and she will never see a doctor unless something is broken, and that is also what she did for us kids as well. I have told my dad to give her an option, go to the doctors or be taken to hospital as that is what it is going to come to. She is using all her puffers and everything like that but that is like a band aid fix. I know that my mum is going to end up being on oxygen in the long run but i really wish if something like this happens she would do what she was told and go to the doctors.

I am really feeling like a little girl reading this. I feel like i am shrinking, being dress in a flower sun dress and my hair is being put into pig tails. I don't want my mummy to die, i want her to be around forever.