1 step forward, 2 steps back

So even though it's been slow in the exercise department, but any progress is progress, which is good. The only probably is that yesterday I go a concussion, so I am out of action for a few days. 

It was really stupid. Yesterday I was looking in a cupbaord that was about nose height, and someone slammed it on my head. But because I have a blood condition I needed to have bloods and a ct scan done, plus neurological observations done. 

All in all I spent about 6 hours in emergency being fussed over, and ended up just having a concussion. The doctor told me to go home and rest, easier said and done when you have a 1 and 3 year year old. 

At the moment I still feel really groggy, have so swelling on the side of my head which should come down in the next few days and have a killer headache. I have been told the sings to watch for, just in case I have a stroke, but all in all I will be fine. 

It just puts things on the back burner in terms of my exercise. 

That crazy thing called exercise

So I tried this thing called exercising on Monday and wow, if you haven't done it in a while it's hard. 

So I decided I would try this 

Thinking that it would be a good workout and it would be relatively easy...but boy was I wrong. 

After one set I was huffing and puffy Amy shins killed, it felt like when I had shin splits.  

Anyway, I solidered on an and got through the two sets, feeling like I was dying. I laid on the floor not wanting to move, but I eventually sat up and did some stretching and then did some floor exercises so that I didn't feel like I did nothing. 

So today I am feeling incredibly sore and decided that I would take a day to rest and jump back on the horse tomorrow. 

Going in with a plan

So Aunt flow hung around a bit with constant spotting, but thankfully gone. So now I am thinking of exercises I can do. 

Every time I have gone into losing weight I have never gone in with a plan, well this time I am planning. 

As I haven't really done some real exercise for a while , other then walking to work, I really want to ease myself into it so I don't do an injury and then I am out for days or weeks. So I thought I will start on the treadmill, as some ab exercises and Yoga. 

I don't want to waste money on a gym if I can never get to one, due to looking after the kids, studying or working. So I guess that is another thing my schedule :-/

I want to be motivated. I want to do this for me. I want to lose weight. 

Motivating myself

So as I wait for Aunt Flow to leave I am building up motivation to get into my exercise. This morning I was only spotting so I might start some light exercise befor I get into on Sunday. 

I know some of you might be wondering why Aunt Flow is stopping me from exercise, well it's because of my blood conditions and I get extremely fatigued and dizzy and have to take it easy. 

With building up my motivation I am Googling fitness motivation imagines, looking at different images of transformations, reading lots of motivational quotes and getting lots of handy hits. I have also improving my water intake as I probably get only about 500mls-1 liter a day so that needs a big improvement. 

I have also asked M to help support and motivate me. For me the first 6 months will be the hardest, I think I will give up if I don't see results , and I know I will have to stop that thinking, and I know that thinking will go ones I feel better about myself. 

Time to think about reinventing

I feel like I am in limbo a bit with this blog. I have about 8 months until M and I try for bub number 3 (insert squeal here lol), and really that is what this blog was all about to begin with. But I constantly find myself looking at this blog and wanting to add a post in it, but I also hear myself saying "they don't want to hear about that".

So, I guess I think I am going to try and reinvent my blog a little. I am going to focus on my children still, and when the time comes trying to conceive bub 3, but my new focus with be on weight loss (which I so need) healthy family friendly meals that the whole family love and my study. I am still studying my Diploma and it is touching on some really great topics that I would love to share with everyone. 

So I guess that will get this blog going again :) 

Not pregnant and Charlotte's appointment

Well like I thought PCOS wins once again and the verdict came out with a not pregnant. To tell you the truth I am not terribly upset about it, I thought I would be, but after Charlotte's appointment we have a few other things to worry about.

So Chadlotte's appointment a couple of things came out of it. Here weight has come up again which is really great and her height hasn't changed. We're going to continue on her reflux medication, although I am going to have to ring up and check the dose, as it says twice daily, but we didn't discuss it. And the other bit if news is that we're going to ring up at get an appointment at the Sydney Children's hospital and see a specialist gastroinologist who will perform a procedure on her to check out stomach. 

I know her doctor wants to cover all basis and make sure nothing else is wrong and I get that. It's just my brain hasn't really caught up with everything yet. 

A bit of an update

Ok so i felt like blogging because I haven't done it in a little while. 

Charlotte is becoming such a little talker. At 19 months she is doing 2 word sentences and starting to say 3 and today she came up to M and said "sorry Daddy", because she had heard Lachlan say it only moments ago. It was so adorable to hear. 

Lachlan has been a little challenging as he has been talking back to both I and M. He is like 3 going on 13! Thankfully he isn't like this all the time, and his Childcare is reporting back that he is being really helpful with packing away equipment at the end of the day and he is doing really with role playing activities. It is kind of hard to believe that he will be 4 this yet, and in a little bit over a year and a half he will will be going to primary school. 

On the whole weight front I couldn't complete the 12 week body transformation due to my bronchitis. So I took down some pointers and will start my own 12 week challenge come Monday. Right now I'm 80kg and I have been like that for a few weeks now, which for me is great as this is the lowest I have been of a few years. I am really hoping that I can motivate myself to stick with this. 

Also today marks 2 weeks since our oops and day 28 in my cycle. My cervix is saying high, firm and closed, but my mind is really having doubts that I am pregnant. As much as I would love to have another baby and be pregnant again, I just think it isn't going to happen off a oops for us. I guess I just wait a few more days and see what happens. If it isn't here in another week I might test, I just don't really see the point if this is just my PCOS messing with me.