One Step at a time

Yesterday was a better day. I went shopping with my sister and Lachalan and i got away from the house and the fresh air, which i think really helped. I finally got my mind off what has been constantly replaying in my head.

But now i am back at home with just Lachlan and me. Now before you start thinking about it there is no way i would harm my son, i have had no thoughts of harming him and there is no way i could do that, i love him to much, he is my world. All the thoughts i have had have been about me and i have been through all this before so i have things in place to help me over come these feelings, they just seen to take time this time around, and i now know i have to go and see someone. I have seen someone before and talking about my feelings to some complete stranger feels stupid to me and they give you some crap advice about things they have never felt before, and there is no support groups in my area for what i have been through so that idea is out.

I will keep you all update on my progress, i now just need to find the time to go to the Doctors and sort this out.