25 weeks

Thankfully nothing much has been going on in the way of the last couple of weeks. Doctor D told me at my last appointment that I was to wrap myself up in bubble wrap and not get into any more trouble (our in joke as I call myself his problem patient), and not getting into trouble is what I plan to do...although I have been cramping and at my appointment on Tuesday I had blood in my pee so I guess I didn't really stick to the no trouble plan....that is right I have got myself put back on bed rest...FUN!! 

I have another appointment next Wednesday to see how I am doing. A lot of things have been thrown around at the moment, like cervical stitch (although I am thinking that it might be a bit late for that now, although I do know they will do it as an emergency case), medication (but with my blood conditions I don't know if I will be able to take it)...but these are just two that stuck in my mind. 

This whole pregnancy with its ups and downs really doesn't make me want to do the whole pregnancy thing again. I loved my pregnancy with Lachlan it was beautiful and I couldn't wait to do it again when I got to hold my little man when he was born (although the birth wasn't what I really had in mind). I know Michael and I first discussed when he were talking about children really early on in our relationship that we both wanted 4 kids, but with losing Jensen and our 2 miscarriages we could of had our family of 4 right there (including Lachlan), but with the constant bleeding and the uncertainty of what is going to happen next it is really starting to stress me out (hence why I don't don't think I am putting on any weight during this pregnancy).

I Know the whole more kids discussion will happen later down the track (we will probably start talking about it when this bub is 6 months, like we did with Lachlan) and if I am anything like when I saw Lachlan for the first time we will defiantly go back and have a third, but right now I don't want the stress.