When will the pain lessen

Watching an episode of friends last night, you know the one where Ross sleeps with the copy girl then later tells Rachel about it. Well I was watching that one and it just reminded me about what happened in my relationship and it just hit a nerve.

it has been 4 months since he cheated on me but the pain is still there and I have no idea when the pain is going to lessen.

I know I must of said this a thousand times and you are probably sick of hearing about it but, why did he do this to me...to us? I know he has told me the reason but it doesn't make sense to me. We have been through so much together and he just throw that away on some other woman. I feel sick to my stomach thinking about it.

He has been doing so much to try and get things back on track. He let me have time away from us so that I could get my head around what had happened and to make my mind up about us. And I decided to go back to him, I decided to try again and hopefully things would work out for the better.

Things have been better I must say been different around here. He has been more attentive and has been making things easier for me, but emotionally, mentally things haven't changed. I still know what happened.

Now don't tell me to see someone and talk it out with them as I have been doing that, and let me tell you...that doesn't really fix anything. I doesn't delete things from your mind, because there is so many images that I would want to get rid of. I guess all I have to do is wait for time to lessen the pain and hope that one day I can think of this being just another hurdle that I will have to over come.