A Day without thinking about it.

Today i decided to put everything about the affair in the back of my mind as i needed to turn back into mum mode, instead or the person that collapse to the floor in tears.

Today i decided to look at my to do list and do some of the things that i have put off since having Lachlan.

So these were the things i did:


* I rang Berg photography and booked Lachlan in to get some portraits done on the 24th March. I decided to leave it this long as he has now started to develop his own little personality and i think it will really come out in his photographs.

* I emailed Essentric, which is the company that did DH and my wedding invitations and thankyou cards as i wanted to them to do Lachlan's announcement cards for his birth. I asked them to send some photo announcement card samples as i wanted to see what i could choose from.

* I looked at a few cake companies on line to see where i could get Lachlan's christening cake from. I know that DH and i are having problems but we organised Lachlan's Christening before this all happened and i didn't want to cancel it and reorganise it for a later date, i don't want everyone knowing our business. And i think i have figured out which cake i want.

* I also went out and picked up some things for dinner tonight. I decided to make my parents dinner to thank them for all they have done for me and Lachlan. They are wonderful people and i couldn't ask for better parents.

Well i didn't get to finish everything on my list but i have planned more things for tomorrow. Today was a good day and it was nice to busy so i didn't need to think about what happened. But i know that tonight when i go to bed i will have lots of time to think. I haven't been sleeping much since this started happening as there to many thoughts and emotions running through my head and i think i am starting to drown in them. I am going to the doctor tomorrow so i will have a chat with him and no doubt my meds will be upped.