One of the hardest days is coming

Tomorrow is going to be a hard day. Tomorrow if my angel baby Jensen went full term he would have been turning 2 years old.

With DH and myself not being together this time around it will be even harder and i will be drawing a lot of strength from Lachlan. It will be hard telling Jensen why his daddy isn't there with us, but i know that DH will be going to see him tomorrow.

Talking about this i can feel my heart being ripped from my chest, and it is hard to swallow as i am chocking back the tears.

I wrote this for Jensen

To my angel Jesen that i carried
But never seen your eyes
Or tell you how much i Loved you
or ever to hear your cries

You will never be forgotten
The excitement we had for your coming
when we realised we would never hold you
the feeling we had was numbing.
My angel Jesen is who you are
My angel Jesen you'll always be
Your Loving memory will live in our hearts
So you will always be right here with us.

Jensen Finn Mackay
25/09/2008 (EDD 12/02/2009)

Mummy will always love you and misses you every day.