CD 31/ 13 DPO...

I am feeling really depressed this morning, i took my temperature and it had dropped...quite a lot. Then i tested and got a BFN.

I get the feeling that this is never going to happen, that we are never going to get the much needed baby that we have always wanted. And i know i am an awful person when i see other people that are pregnant or that have children and i think they shouldn't have them, or if you see a person that are trying for their 5th or their 7th, it is like "haven't you got enough already?"

i guess some back story, i have miscarried twice and we have been actively trying for a baby since August 2008, so our 6 months will be up soon. On January 12th 2010 i was diagnosed with polycystic Ovaries. The Doctor said that i had a good diagnosis and that he expects that before my 12 months are up i will be pregnant, and said that if i am not pregnant by August 2010 to come back and see him.

I think the Doctor got my hopes up, and i think i was hoping that this was my month...but God i was wrong. This is my 5th cycle that i have got a BFN and the 5th cycle that i have come face to face with the disappointment that i am not pregnant.