I think i have a cold or do i.....?

Well since yesterday i have had a sore thought and a stuffy nose. Now i have had a look on Google and apparently flu like symptoms is a pre labour sign, which would explain some things as on Thursday night DH and i thought that i was going into labour but the pains that i were having were too irregular and then stopped. I am just hoping that things start progressing and i go into labour soon.

Good News Baby has dropped

Well there is some good news on the Baby front, Dr Davis told me today that baby has dropped and he gave me the speech about if my waters break ect to call the hospital. It is so good to know that it is going to happen and sometime soon!!!

Quick Update

Just a quick update i have been given the all clear to have and epidual/spinal by Dr Ramakrishna which is awesome!

Dr Davis appointment and Mum to be pamper package

Well on Monday i had my appointment with Dr Davis he did the usual check up and he also checked baby's position and to see if he was engaged. Now here i was keeping my fingers crossed, Baby was lying flat on his back which is good but he wasn't engaged, but like Dr Davis said we will take it 1 week at a time and we will see next Monday.

He we also talked about epidurals and spinals as well at this appointment as due to my blood condition i might not be able to have one (i knew this might come up and i think i was trying to keep it blocked out as i still wanted it as an option). I have an appointment with Dr Ramakrishna (haematologist) on Wednesday so i have to speak to him about it and see if it is an option. If it isn't an option i will need to call Dr Davis and let him know as i will probably need a General Anaesthetic if i need a C-section, which i don't really want but if that is the only way to keep me and baby alive then i will listen to the Doctors as they know what they are doing.

Dr Davis also gave me a blood test, apparently my Haematologist forgot to include a test on my last blood test that he really needs so it looks like i will need to go for that today and have it marked urgent.

Also on Monday i had my mummy to be pamper package which included a Deluxe pedicure, Deluxe manicure, Deluxe facial and a eye lash tint and oh my god i was in heaven! i was there for about 3 hours and even though i had to get up and go to the toilet a few times it did not spoil the mood. with every piece of deluxeness (i know its not a word) i was getting a massage as well and i tell you what it was just what i needed. So now my toe nails and finger nails look all pretty and my eye lashes are so black and my skin looks amazing...i feel so spoilt.

36 week Ultrasound

Not much going on but i had my 36 week ultrasound today and everything seems to measuring well although i am measuring ahead of my due date, so i am keeping my fingers crossed and hoping that i go early!

Baby wasn't playing nice so no pictures this time which is a shame but i get to see him in about 3 weeks (or less) time.

25 Days to go and the Fear of Post Natal Depression

It is amazing to know that it is coming so close to meeting my little boy. But in the back of my mind i think i might be a scared little girl thinking all the ifs and maybes that might happen. I am mostly trying not to think about them as i think i am prepared for what is going to happen and i am up for anything thing Dr Davis suggests as he has delivered millions of babies and i haven't even had one.

I am also afraid of what will happen after i have the baby. My GP has told me that i have a high chance of getting post natal depression due to being diagnosed with depression, anxiety and Post Traumatic Stress disorder and i knew that from the start that there was a possibility of me getting PND, but now as things start getting closer i am thinking about it more and more. I don't have any fears that being a mother isn't going to be easy, i don't have any fears that waking up in all hours of the night is going to be hard, i am also not one of those people that sit there and say i am going to be a bad mother, but the one thing i fear is getting PND and knowing that if i am left alone with my baby and the PND is that bad that i can harm him, i don't want to know that fear.

As DH and i have been together for a long time, he knows the signs of if i am sinking back into that pit, he has been there for some of my hardest moments when all i wanted to do was give up. And being as wonderful as he is, he is very optimistic that i will not get PND, and i guess i need that, i need someone telling me that everything will be fine and to push all those fears aside and to hold me until i feel better.

But i guess we won't know until after the birth to see if these fears unfold and i just have to keep myself together and try not to get anxious about it. As that could definitely contribute to it.

OB Appointment plus 31 days to go!

Well 31 days to go...it is coming so close that i am starting to get anxious about it. Anxious as it is taking to long, and starting to think am i going to be a good mum, i hope that i am able to breast feed and a lot of other little things that keep running through my head. I know it is normal to feel all these things, so i am not turning into a basket case and in a little ball in the cornor of the room muttering things to myself. I actually mentioned it to DH last night that i was getting nurvous and he also admitted that he was also nervous and it was nice to have a chat with him and it actually made me feel lot better knowing that he wasn't all cool calm and collected as i thought he was.

My appointment yesterday with Dr Davis went well. I got to hear bubs heart beat and Dr Davis also checked to see if the baby was engaged...which OMG made me feel like there wasn't long to go, i was kind of happy that he didn't turn to me and say "bubs engaged we can expect him sooner rather then later." I also got a referral to get some swabs done for a strep B test which i have to have done at 36 weeks which is next week. But other then that he said that i am perfect (which believe me gave me a big head for a couple of hours).

Trip to the Hospital

Well it has been a couple of days but on Wednesday DH and i had a trip to the hospital. The problem was that i had a bit of bleeding. I noticed there was some spotting on the toilet paper when i went to the toilet. Being paranoid like i am i always check when i go to the toilet.

I rang the hospital and i was very calm as i didn't know if there was a problem or that i was fact going into labour and i just didn't feel the contractions. They asked me a few questions and asked me to pack an over night bag just in case. As DH was at work and it would take 20 minutes to get to me i called him and told him that i was feeling fine and that bubs was moving and if he could come and get me to take me to the hospital.

Within 20 minutes DH had come home and we headed straight to the hospital. As i had no more bleeding they took me into one of the birthing rooms and strapped me to a monitor and started monitoring the baby. This went on for about 30 minutes with them coming to check on me every 10. Bubs readings were fine and they rang Dr Davis (as he was delivering a baby) and checked with him to see if they should monitor me longer but he said that i was right to go, but to come back if there was any problems.

It was scary but i was really proud of myself that i kept it all together and didn't panic.