4 days of stress and more to come

Sorry for all those who have been visiting my blog, I haven't been a very good host.

On Saturday I had to take my DH to hospital as he was in excruciating pain, as he has a slip disc in his back that has been hitting a nerve. I spent all day with DH in emergency where they were trying to get his pain under control with all sorts of meds, but sadly none were working. The Doctor decided that the best course of treatment was admit him to the hospital so that could get him on the right combination of medications and to get his pain under control while also booking him in for an MRI to see how badly the nerve was being affected.

When the MRI was booked it was until Wednesday (tomorrow) and the meds just weren't working and he was still in pain. So since Yesterday (Monday) I have been trying to get him transferred to our local private hospital so that he can be more comfortable and to try and get things moving.

DH was very lucky that they had a cancellation for the MRI today and he went in and got it done. The Doctor who's care he is under has discharged with heaps of drugs for him to take and he is on bed rest until next Tuesday where he will go in for a day procedure and help manage the pain. If this doesn't work then the next step is for him to have surgery.

All this has been really stressful for me and it has been hard with Lachlan. I have felt so much like a bad wife and mother over the last couple of days. I have felt like I have just dumped Lachlan on my sister and my parents for them to watch him as I rush off the the hospital to be with DH and then I feel like a bad wife as I can't been there for my husband as much as I would like and as much as he would want me there. I tried to take Lachlan in to see him a number of times, but as Lachlan is now crawling and wanting to move so much more he didn't like the fact that he had to sit still and to be quite as there were a number of people around my DH who were sleeping. I also didn't really like taking Lachlan in to the hospital as I didn't want him to get sick if he happened to touch something that wasn't properly cleaned, which DH also agreed with.

On another front I had my ultrasound today and should get the results the next time I head into my doctors which might be the end of this week or next (all depending if I can find the time), and from there I will be put on metformin and with start getting my cycles under control so that we can try for another bub in September.

On another not I will be heading back to work on Monday the 4th. Not really looking forward to it as I would love to be a stay at home mum but right now not knowing how things will go with DH we really need to have some extra money.

Bloods and Ultrasound and we will see.....

Well from my Doctors appointment last week I got a blood test referral and an ultrasound referral. I had the bloods today (well I needed to have some done today anyway as I am seeing my haematologist next Friday), and I have an ultrasound booked for Tuesday morning. My Doctor wanted to be 100% sure that PCOS is the problem before he puts me on metformin.

Initially he wanted me to go on the pill to regulate my cycle, but as we want to try for another bub in September (yes September, we have brought the date forward as my cycles are all over the place) we thought that wouldn't be the best move, so I suggested metformin to help regulate it and he is happy to put me on it as long as all the results come back as still PCOS.

I am kind of happy that we are getting somewhere with all of this, well not with the fact that I have PCOS. But I do find it comforting that I have my son and the fact that I did conceive him while apparently having PCOS. I am not completely sure on all the particulars on starting metformin, such what I should or shouldn't do, or what he side effects are while on it (if anyone knows please comment), but if it helps regulate my cycle and gives us a chance to have another bub I am willing to do anything.

Appointment Made

I have made an appointment to go into my doctors on Friday as something needs to be done about my periods. They are all over the place and I am really getting frustrated not knowing when they will turn up.

It have started thinking about the long run. what am I going to do when we start trying again in November? Am I still able to ovulate? And these are the questions that I really need to be answered before we start. If there is something the Doctor can do for me now so that I can get my periods regular would be great.

I have been talking to some of the girls in the Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) Chat on Bubhub about what should be my next step and they have suggested that I might need to to talk to my Doctor about may be going on Metformin ( metformin can help restore a natural menstrual cycle and improve your chances of getting pregnant when you have PCOS) and they have also suggested getting a referral to a fertility specialist.

I know I have become pregnant on my own with Lachlan, but that was before I found out that I have PCOS and I really don't want that to stop our chances of having more children (even though I am determined to not let that stop me).

Fingers crossed that my Doctor and I can work something out.

What's going on

Well I have realised that I haven't really been telling you what is going on in this wonderful world of mine. So I thought that I better give a bit of an update.

Well almost 2 weeks ago DH and I had a bit of an accident in the bedroom. Well we waited and waited for AF to show up and it did. On Wednesday she showed her face and there was a little sigh of relief from us, but there was also a bit of sadness. DH thought it would of been great to add another little one to our family, thought that this was awesome that he is interested in trying again sooner rather then later. So I am thinking there will be "the talk" later down the track.

Lachlan is well and truly crawling now and getting into everything!!! At first there was a lot of getting up and down from me, but on Tuesday DH and I moved the furniture around and blocked off all the necessary things and now it is a much safer house for our little bubba (not saying that it wasn't safe before).

He is also now starting to pull himself up on things as well now (this kid never stops). I have only started to get used to him crawling...I am guessing that I will need to get used to him coasting along the furniture and then walking.

I have also contacted my work and organised days to go back to work. On the 4th July I will be heading back to work. They have now made my days roster days with another lady who will be doing my full time hours. So I will be working 6.30am -3pm or 10.30am -7pm. I have been thinking about just asking for the later hours as it will work out better in the long run for Lachlan and any other kids we might have, as DH starts work at 4 am. But we will see how things go.

DH and I are still moving a long great after what happened earlier in the year. He has gone above and beyond I think to make things better and to make sure he is a positive role model for Lachlan and to become and better father and husband to the both of us. There will be still times where it will be hard but I am sure that we will get through it, as I know there would be no other person that I want to be with and there is no other person that I want to be the father to my child/ren.

Who needs a social life!

Now this post is probably a bit late...but how does the saying go, better late then never.

Since being on bubhub I have met some great gals, some who I have become great friends with and some who we have just gone our separate ways but still like say hello and see how our journeys are going.

When I became pregnant with Lachlan I joined my monthly chat in the when are you due? thread on bubhub where I met some great ladies who were having babies in the same month as me. These ladies were a great source of information and helped me in more ways then one.

When the month of October came around some of us started to have our babies (very exciting) and because we did sms buddies we all got to be involved in the excitement. From there we moved to the next stage of the chat until Facebook became our meeting place and we have been there ever since.

Since moving on to Facebook I think it has become more personal. We actually know each others names and get to see into their lives through the photos they have on their profiles and through their status updates.

On Friday the 4th June the conversation did get personal. First of all we were talking about the importance of getting a pap smear and then we all witnessed something special. There is a member in our little group that is going through tuff times with her partner being in hospital. Her partner had been on their laptop while he was in hospital on Friday and when she brought it home, turned it on and opened there was a beautiful 'Sticky note' on the screen which read:

To my dear fiance
I love you with all my everything...if I didn't have you by my side I don't know what I would do. The past 6 months have been hard but we will get through this. Stay strong and I will be homes soon, love you with all my heart and soul, you are the perfect mother. You never complain and make sure that T and myself are ok....You never put yourself first and I think tomorrow you should. I love you babe and will be home soon.

P.S Did you notice that I called you my fiance??! Love you and I can't wait to call you my wife.

Isn't that so beautiful!!! The proposal of the 21st century :)

It was wonderful that something great could happen to her, she has been through so much in the past few months and I am sure this just proves that it was worth it.

Congrats V and M!